Saturday, June 16, 2012

another passing

I have a brother who is 8 years older than myself. My mother,  had him at 17  barely 7 months along. In 1942 when a infant was under 3 lbs there was little hope. Even though Mom was married somehow my  grandparents decided they should raise him, and they did. I did not meet him until he was 21.
HE was not all together "in his right mind" and he caused lots of trouble. He did get married it lasted long enough for him to father two daughters.
A few days ago while on facebook I noticed people saying things to my niece like, " so sorry for your loss", "I will keep you in our prayers.." I went back through the "wall" but could not figure out what  had happened. I emailed Diane Sue and found out the her sister, my 41 year old niece, wife and mother of 5 had been killed Wednesday the 13th by a drunk driver.
I immediately wanted to call Daddy and Mom and tell them. I even had the phone in my hand for a brief second.
Cindy is with the Lord,  she has seen Daddy,  I believe.  I can't tell Mom, she most likely would not know who Cindy even was. My heart once again aches there are so many things that Alzheimer's steals. Even sharing tragedy, is not possible..... My heart has no more tears right now...Night all. God Bless.


  1. I am so sorry for your loss. What a terrible thing to have happened!It is hard to not be able to share the things we would normally share.
    Thinking of you.. Mary

    1. Mary, Every once in awhile I ponder what it would be like if Mom and Dad were still with me mentally and physically even if they were still living in AZ.EVERY morning I would email Daddy before I left to swim at our YMCA at 5:30 am. When I returned my Daddy would have sent me an email. He and I did that for the last 5 years of his life.This July 28th he will have been gone 3 years It took me months to turn on my computer early in the morning without crying. Mom has been in the nursing home 2 1/2 years. Of all the things I miss; the NOT being able to share life's highs and lows is the most painful. Thanks for the kind thoughts, God Bless, Jewels