Tell me what is worse, the death of a beloved parent,the living parent who never says anything positive to you or the mother who has Alzheimer's and "hates" you?
A Spring bouquet of yellow flowers with several yellow rose will arrive for my Mother for Mother's Day Friday. The card just says, "You are Loved." I don't dare sign the card.
I hate this! I am sorry to complain it just hurts so much. I realized today that I really am not angry any more I am not waiting for an apology that will never come. The really bad times are packed away in box buried in the depths of my mind and soul. I do love her and I want her back, I want the good times. I want the kids to have fun with their grandma. I want to take her shopping and out to lunch.
It's NOT FAIR! I want her back WHOLE! ALZHEIMER'S IS BEYOND HORRID!
So nice of you to send your mom floweres . We did nothing for mom for moms day. I do fix her a cake for her birthdays. But that is because she can eat that and we all help. She does not know the diffeance in one day to the next.
ReplyDeleteI believe this stage of your mom's disease will pass. You might keep checking to see . Mom went throw a crazy,mean,beat me up and try to kill me phase. So one day when you go see your she will be a differant person. I bet ya. Praying.
Karen, I have been praying and thinking about visiting and have decided sometime in the next few weeks I will do so. But as you know how she is will behave is any one's guess. Take care of yourself, God Bless, Jewels
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